Its nights like…

Its nights like these where,

I wonder if anything is ever going to get better…

Its nights like these where,

I wonder if I am ever going to be able to move forward with my life…

Its nights like these where,

I wonder when its going to stop, the calls, the texts, the anger, the hatred…

Angerness fills my soul in moments like these,

Its moments like these where I want to just want to run away…

Run away from her.

Run away from the anger, and the sadness.

Tiring.

Tiring to have these feelings and emotions day after day, night after night.

I feel like I am breaking into a million pieces, and never have the chance to be put together.

Hatred text messages dont solve the problem.

Telling someone you hate them over, and over again doesnt solve the problem.

Telling yourself you are over her and dont need her wont solve the problem.

Nothing will ever solve the problem,

until

she

is

gone

for

good

Until then, I guess I can be fine.

Just fine.

 

One thought on “Its nights like…

  1. WOW, I am sorry you are in so much pain, there is no relief for you, I am so very sorry. You are such a strong, loving and giving young woman and “she” may well be jealous of you and all you have accomplished in your young life. But, stay strong, I know the inner toughness you possess and you can get through this. I see the photos of your support group who love and adore you and all that you are. I am so proud of you and love you dearly. Stay strong sweetie, Auntie Jan

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