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Buzy Bee

Its been a wild month of January for me!

2 weeks of training in Anchorage!

BUT I was able to squeeze in a fur hat, and a new bag pattern with more techniques.

It was filled with pain, and mass amounts of anger just from ONE phone call from my mother… Its amazing how one phone call can bring you back to a bad place… Brings back awful memories where you just want to punch a hole in the wall… Scream at the top of your lungs until you cant breathe… Its ridiculous… I will have to elaborate on this at a later date.

For now, here are my awesome projects!

AND I am in the process of making a fish skin bag! Heres a sneak preview!

Peytons malaggayaq
Peytons malaggayaq
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Side one of my bag
(6) fat quarter bag
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Side two of (6) fat quarter bag
Step one cut and pull of fish skin from body
Step one cut and pull of fish skin from body. Removing fins are optional. If fish is fresh fins are good for decoration.
Removing the fish skin
Removing the fish skin

More pictures to come!

 

 

Life in slow motion

A glimmer of hope.  A ray of light.
A glimmer of hope.
A ray of light.

Too often we take things in life for granted.

We dont stop to appreciate the simple things.

A ray of sunlight thru the clouds.

The sparkling stars at night.

A smile from a stranger.

We have only one life to live and we must take chances and live on the edge. Because in the end what do we have to show for ourselves?

Our diplomas?

Our certificates?

What…

What do you have to show for? What are you proud of?

I know for myself I am proud that I have the ability to create things for myself, family and friends.

I appreciate homemade items.

I enjoy the simple things in life. Like when AC has a special type of creamer. Or a balmy 32 degree evening walk with my pooch. Enjoying a nice conversation with my step-son.

I am realizing that I need to slow down. Relax. Breathe. Take care of myself so that I can care for others. With my awful need to constantly clean I am able to pull back a tad and not worry about a dirty dish on the counter, or dirty socks under the coffee table. These are small things that shouldnt equal a big reaction.

Take time out each day and dedicate it to yourself. Take deep long breaths. Do what you love even if others dont approve because its your life. And be awesome!

Holiday sewing madness

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Quilted bag #1
Quilted bag #1

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November and Christmas have been a super busy month for me! Heres all my awesome sewing creations! 🙂

Enjoy my work! I had a blast making these!

Finding the good in the bad…

Christmas came and went. Presents in and out. Smiles and tears. Mostly tears.

December 23rd I lost another awesome uncle. My uncle Hank was a great man. A twinkle in his eye. A great big smile that never failed to put a smile on your face.

Although I am saddened his presence is missing. I am grateful for the time that I spent with him. I smile looking back on the time spent with Uncle Hank a few months ago. Although I saw him only at funerals, anniversaries, and weddings each moment I treasure.

Thank you Uncle Hank for making me laugh. Thanks for being awesome. Silly. Loving. And caring.

You will be missed greatly.

Me, auntie Diane, Uncle Hank. Rest in peace Uncle
Me, auntie Diane, Uncle Hank. Rest in peace Uncle

This has been a tough year for my families. I have lost another family member which leaves a wide open space of nothing. I look back and I smile for all the happy memories with my cousin, brother, friend Nick. Nick was one of a kind. He was quiet,  caring, and loving. He had a heart of gold. He went above and beyond for family, friends, and strangers. I am going to miss his laughter. One of my favorite memories was when Nick snuck me, Tina, and Alan out of our fishcamp to go fishing at 2 am. We went to one of the abandoned barges, and jammed out to KYUK 640 am and fished till the wee hours of the morning. So carefree and awesome Nick was. I am going to miss you Nick. 

Fishcamp days. Nick, me and my brother. Miss you always Nick.
Fishcamp days. Nick, me and my brother. Miss you always Nick.

Life is too short. Never miss a moment to tell loved ones you love them. Life is unpredicable. Live every moment to its full potential.

Sew Crazy

I have been on a sew fest, craziness!

Discovering I can make new things, in a short amount of time is awesome! So what do I do?

I make LOTS of them! And then some!

Here are my latest and greatest!

Fish bags for days. These are for your plastics!
Fish bags for days. These are for your plastics!
bag 1
Inside scrap bag
bag2
Scrap bag side 2
Scrap bag side 1
Scrap bag side 1
bag4
Inside scrap bag

I made this for a friend but was soo tempted to keep it! We bartered and she gets this bag and I get a cute hippy slouchy hat! Pictures to come when it is in good hands. My hands!

Enjoy!

Odd ways

Life has odd ways of throwing curve balls your way…

It makes you realize what you need to be grateful of

Yes, its December and its in the 40s and there is no snow

But I have a roof over my head

Food to feed my family

and firewood to keep them warm (if it ever gets cold again)

But no matter what.

I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason.

Reasons unknown. But…

You just go with the flow.

You dont stop.

You keep going because oddly, this was something that was supposed to happen.

Either it will make you stronger

or

break you down.

Either way.

Keep going.

When life throws you curveballs

you dont just stand there and watch

You dont take the walk

You fight. And you swing hard.

Be grateful for life.

Be grateful for family.

Most of all be grateful that you have the strength to stand there and take whatever life throws at you.

Treasures from long ago…

As I rummaged thru the old boxes, suitcases, and totes filled with treasures my blood began to boil.

How could she have kept all this from me all these years?

Things that I could have been wearing.

Things that I could have been re-making.

Things that I could have kept safe from the mold…

But then I remembered how selfish she is.

How she wants to keep things from me, and how she has.

And she managed to steal things of mine that I use on the daily like my steel toe extra tuff boots.

Finding those boots just re-affirms my thoughts on how she is so selfish, and she will take things of mine just so I cant have them.

Fur hats that my brother and I wore as kids.

A fur hat I made in 2nd grade.

Mukluks that my gram made.

Ivory earrings.

Pictures of some time ago.

Qaspeqs for days…

Knitted socks my gram made.

All stashed away just so I cant have them. Wear them. Or share them.

Thank goodness I was able to salvage them. And now I can take better care of them.

Life is too short to be selfish.

Give as much as you can. And take as much as you can.

There is no need for saving things. Use them now.

The treasures from long ago. Thank goodness I found them.

Whats the use of saving if your never going to use them?

Thankul Thanksgiving

As I sti here and reflect on what to be thankful for…

The phone rang.

and of course it was her.

Do I answer?

Yes. I answer and then

I hung up.

Why is it that she can just up and call me just because its THANKSGIVING.

A day that we are suppose to be thankful for everything and everyone.

But seeing her name on the caller ID made my blood boil, and I felt the tears building up…

She cant do that. She cant think that just because its a holiday she can call me say thanksgiving, tell me how much she loves me, and then act as if nothing happened. Its wrong.

What goes thru her head? I just dont get it.

And then I instantly regretted hanging up. I wanted to tell her how awful she was. How she ruined my childhood. How she cant keep doing this to me. Bringing me back to this dark, awful, cold place. A place of hate of anger. I wanted to tell her all the awful things that shes said to me. Only…

I know what would happen. She would get upset. She wouldnt listen. She would get angry with me. And then she would drink. And it would be all my fault. She would blame me the next time she saw me with those piercing evil eyes.

So its better I dont answer. Its better I dont tell her anything. Its better that I just dont bother.

I am thankful for my amazing husband who keeps me grounded. And my amazing father who has been my rock and my best friend in my early on years… And he still is 🙂

Did I mention I love to sew? I am thankful that I am learning to sew and want to sew.
Did I mention I love to sew? I am thankful that I am learning to sew and want to sew.

I am also thankful I didnt leave the giblets, or the neck in the turkey this year.

I am thankful for the internet and the ability read instructions.
I am thankful for the internet and the ability read instructions.

I am thankful I am able to move forward, and leave the past and the negativity in the past.

I am thankful for sewing, and my patience to sit for LONG periods of time.
I am thankful for sewing, and my patience to sit for LONG periods of time.

I am thankful that my dog likes beer.

:)
Mac has problems 🙂

I forgot to mention I am thankful that I lived to be 27 years young. Heres to another 73 I hope…

What are you thankful for?

Breaking pieces of my soul

Looking into her eyes is like staring down a black tunnel.

So cold.

So strange.

So dark.

How can this human being be my mother?

How is it possible that she brought me into this world only to abandon me

for

reasons

I will never

know,

understand

Or

ever get over.

Staring at her is sickening.

I want to cry.

I want to puke.

I want to take her, throw her down, stomp on her and then

just then

see how she feels.

Because that has been my life since day 1 of her sickness

Living like this

Living like this with her toxicness is killing me

Piece by piece

I am slowly breaking

until

there will be

nothing

left

of

my

happy

loving

soul.