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November 7, 2014

Healthy start to Movember

November is off to a great start!

Halloween was a hit! We had a great halloween gathering with our friends and it was ahhhhmazing!

We had costume winners! We had scary treats! Bobbing for beer! Nothing better than to start November off to a BANG!

Had to whip out this quick qaspeq vest for a welcome to Bethel gift. But it didnt fit so its up for grabs its about a size small for $65.

Quick homemade gift. Qaspeq vest & fireweed jalapeno jelly!

Im trying this whole meal planning and hopefull it will kick me off to a great start. SO far so good, although it might be TOO much food. who would have thunk that.

Lunch:

I roasted all the vegetables at 425 degrees with a little bit of oil, salt and pepper.

Asparagus, broccoli, sweet potatoes, and cauliflower.

I cooked up some brown rice in the rice cooker and put a cup in each dish.

For the chicken I cooked them on stovetop and seasoned with cumin, paprika, garlic salt, and pepper. They are delicious!

And of course hard boiled eggs for a snack here and there, great protein!

Im trying this healthy meal planning out and so far so good.

These breakfast burritos are very hearty and filling! Probably should have kept them light.

Breakfast burritos:

Eggs

Potatoes

Peppers

Spinach

Chesee

Voila!

Let them freeze and then wrap then in foil. When you are ready to heat up wrap in a wet paper towel for about 2 minutes.

Of course I had to add some humor to my scary meatloaf fellows. 🙂

I was googling couples costumes and found this great idea to be crown and coke! These took me about an hour and they turned out awesome! I cant wait to start brewing up ideas for next year!

My quick impromptu halloween whipped out costumes for the hubby and me. 🙂

Here are the few decorations we decided to put up last minute. We scared many kids and adults and had children crying even before getting to the door. We were also blasting scary music in the entryway which freaked me out a little.

The few decorations that scared the crap of out some kids.

Nothing scarier than xtra tuffs stuffed under a old boiler 😉

October 29, 2014

October, its not over yet…

Halloween qaspeq — I whipped out this cute little qaspeq during my lunch hour. This one is going to a special little stinker.

Halloween boys qaspeq — This one is a boys size 7-8 qaspeq for a friends little boy.

Just a few more days to whip out more products for the month of October!

Whew!

So nuts! A month filled of crafting, political antics, classes, traveling to the villages, and school, oh and I forgot to mention HOME life which all together can be stressful.

This evening is dedicated to halloween bag, qaspeqs, and class. OH and decorating my small porch for Halloween so the kids can have a little scare before they get their jumbo size candy bars!

Will post photos later!

For the meantime ENJOY!

October 24, 2014

October as a busy bee

Another busy bee.

Who says 13 credits, full time job, part time job, teenager, husband, pupper-do and sewing wasnt possible?

I guess you can say I like to stay busy as a bee, and do a very good job of that.

We are half-way thru October, which is insane! Where has summer gone? Where has fall gone?

As winter nears I get excited but sad because of how quickly time passes us, and sometimes I dont stop to enjoy the moments.

I enjoy what I do.

I enjoy my full time job.

My part time job working with the political frenzy is coming to an end. Only 12 more days and then the big boom of rush to the polls. So vote early, and just flat right vote.

And I love sewing. I love when winter nears because that means it times to bust out the fur and get fuzzy.

If I could just sew and go to school I dont know if that would be busy enough for me hence the two other jobs and all the other hats at home.

BUT enough rambling.

Heres the latest and greatest and I should have more projects to share before the end of the year!

Enjoy!

another boys qaspeq — Boys size 10 simple qaspeq

More bags in the making! I love these colors and how well they mesh.

boys qaspeq — Another one of my favorite boys size 10 qaspeq.

I SAVE all my scraps and they come in handy when I whipped out these cup cozies.

halloween bags — More kids Halloween trick or treat bags because they were a hit the first time, I had to whip them out a second time.

grass basket collecting — Lets hope that these make some amazing grass baskets. I dont know how to make them yet but I am willing to learn and this is the first step collecting and drying it. I will post a proper photo of how to dry them because there is a specific way.

moose tops — My latest and greatest project moose beaded slipper tops. Beading isnt one of my strong areas but I am hoping to get better as I continue to bead.

Halloween Trick or Treat Bags — More Halloween trick or treat bags different style

Do what makes you happy.

Do it often and with joy because life is all about being happy and finding joy in the little things such as sewing or beading.

August 20, 2014August 20, 2014

Whaaaat. Whoooo? Me? Busy? Naw. Just crazy.

Lets just say its been a busy few months of harvesting berries and greens, sewing like a maniac, and taking time to breathe.

But here is what I what I have whipped up so far. Its been a crazy few months but as winter is approaching I will be able to sit back, relax, and enjoy the fruits of my labor.

Deuce bigalow — Me & Joe hanging with Rob Schneider in Las Vegas

berry grateful — Found a nice looking patch!

womens qaspeq 1 — Qaspeq for one my dear friends 🙂

womens qaspeq — A qaspeq for one of my very first friends!

womens qaspeq 2 — Love the colors of this qaspeq and trimming

my first diaper bag — My very first diaper bag

make up bags 1 — Make up bag madness take 2

fireweed with cinnamon & all spiace — Fireweed jelly with cinnamon & all spice

fireweed jalapeno jelly — Fireweed jelly jalapeno

Firewee jalapeno — The finished product of fireweed jelly

Nothing like feeling rich with good food, friends, and family.

My heart is happy.

August 1, 2014August 1, 2014

I can finally say…

I can finally say that I am…

Happy.

Peaceful.

Its quiet.

So quiet, I can finally hear my thoughts,

dreams,

wishes,

wants,

and

hopes.

Imagine that.

All it took was 15 pages of paper.

My signature.

A courtoom.

Judge.

Me.

And then her.

That was it.

Really?

That was it? Thats all?

Why didnt I think of this sooner?

Restraining orders a blessing in disguise.

Maybe, just maybe I can finally start moving forward. Just maybe. Can it be possible?

Am I capable of living a normal life?

Whats normal?

I dont know. All I know is I am…

Comfortable.

Happy.

Amazing.

April 25, 2014

A whirlwind of business…

5:30 morning phone calls that boil my blood

sewing

and more sewing

I will elaborate on my fun 5:30 am phone call. Everyone wants that phone call. You want that phone tell, let me tell you. It starts your morning out with a bang.

6 Qaspeqs

6 days! Was fun and fun! Tiring but fun!

They turned out amazing!

Miss Megan Leary is representing our Kuskokwim region as I type!

Check out my handy dandy work! These qaspeqs were beautiful and I had a good time sewing them!

Hope you enjoy my work!

Miss WEIO posing after I rudely woke her up and made her put on her qaspeqs

Red in full form :) this one turned out really nice! — Red in full form 🙂 this one turned out really nice!

5:30 phone calls cant bring me down as long as I keep pushing.

5:30 comes and goes everyday twice a day and I remind myself I am better than that. I am better than her. I am a stronger person. I dont deserve to be rudely awakened at 5:30 am to be cussed out and called all sorts of nasty names at such an early hour. I am a better and stronger person.

Ring, ring

Its 5:30 wake up.

Ring, ring

Hurry its 5:30 wake up

Oh, must be important.

5:30 wake up calls are unusual.

Oh, wait am I 7 again? or 10? or 14?

I remember those awful calls.

Dad unplugging the phone.

Me unplugging the phone.

Who else would be waking me at an ungodly hour.

Ring, ring.

Maybe if I ignore it she will hang up.

Nope

On comes the answering machine

and there it is

that

dreadful

awful

voice

~~its her…~~

My blood is boiling, the tears are swelling, and the assholes, bitches, mother effer’s come out

its 5:30 why not

lets start the morning off right.

Nothing but F you’s and you stupid B’s and all that jazz.

5:30

Oh how I hate you

I hate those memories

those horrible tired mornings

You stupid B just rot in hell please and leave me be

Because 5:30 comes and goes

but her

shes always there

waiting for the next morning to

call

harrass

and

ruin

life

one

day

time.

Thanks mom!

Did I mention that I hate you.. Yup, sure do.

So bring it on 5:30 I’ll be ready.

April 16, 2014April 16, 2014

Its nights like…

Its nights like these where,

I wonder if anything is ~~ever~~ going to get better…

Its nights like these where,

I wonder if I am ever going to be able to move forward with my life…

Its nights like these where,

I wonder when its going to stop, the calls, the texts, the anger, the hatred…

Angerness fills my soul in moments like these,

Its moments like these where I want to just want to run away…

Run away from her.

Run away from the anger, and the sadness.

Tiring.

Tiring to have these feelings and emotions day after day, night after night.

I feel like I am breaking into a million pieces, and never have the chance to be put together.

Hatred text messages dont solve the problem.

Telling someone you hate them over, and over again doesnt solve the problem.

Telling yourself you are over her and dont need her wont solve the problem.

Nothing will ever solve the problem,

until

she

gone

for

good

Until then, I guess I can be fine.

Just fine.

March 24, 2014

Lets just say…

Lets just say its been a busy couple of months for me…

Cute table runner I donated to Bethel Friends of Canine

Another table runner I donated to a family friend

I am also now a proud owner of a sea otter pelt!

I have somewhat become addicted to sewing…. Its been a busy few months for me on the sewing machine, in the office, and at home dealing with home life.

My mother never fails to pop into my life when I least expect it, and when I welcome it the least. She has the worst timing. She manages to step into my life and stomp me further into the ground. Her drunken voice boils my blood. Her laughter makes me want to strangle her soul. Its amazing what one phone call can do to my well being. It brings me back to a damn spiral of anger and disgust. And in the moments what I wouldnt do to hurt her with all my might. But then I realize shes nothing to me. Shes been dead to me for years and I just need to let it go like a dead fly. Moments like those rotten phone calls remind me that I will never heal until she has left this earth for good.

Until then I just keep on kicking. Keep on breathing. Keep on moving.

March 1, 2014

4 years and so many losses.

Its been 4 years.

Ive lost 4 uncles and many more cousins, and friends.

But its crazy to think that I have lost 4 uncles in 4 years. 2 uncles just last year. How unlucky am I?

Its difficult to reflect back on pictures and memories and to really grasp that fact that they are gone. Gone forever. Its a painful thought that I often feel when it comes to my mother. But its different for family members that actually care about you, and not treat you like dirt.

One phone call. One letter. One post card. I would give anything for just one more phone call to hear their voices, and their laughter.

Cherish those family members that are still alive. I know it may seem hypocritical of me because I have no relations with my mother, and I refuse to make an effort. But its my way of healing and dealing with her bullshit. I refuse to put myself back in the fire only to be burned for the millionth time. I refuse to be called a bitch, and a whore by someone who brought me into this joyous world. I wont have it.

All I have our the happy memories. Happy memories in Michigan. Happy memories in Nunapitchuk. I can smile and remember them, and cry and remember them. They will always be apart of me.

Tell your loved one you love them often as possible. Make that phone call. Write that letter. Just because they are distant relatives, or uncles and aunts you never talk to hardly make that effort. In the end they are still family.

My uncle At'saq passed in July 2012. — My uncle At’saq passed in July 2012.

Between uncles passing many other cousins, and friends have passed. Its crazy to look back and think of all those that have passed before me. Sad. But it is what it is.

Even though my mother is still alive I would give anything to have my uncles still here to this day. Who wants heartbreak, and being dragged in the mud with all kinds of nasty names spit on you as you pass by?

I know I dont.

February 22, 2014February 22, 2014

Break day

Im 4 days in. Day one was great energized and motivated. Day 4 not soo much. The last few days havent been any different from normal. No bursts of energy, no motivation. Honestly I felt better when I just was just juicing.

Today is rest day I have been going HAM at the gym and non-stop! The first 3 days Ive been in the gym running, and lifting. My muscles hate me but I am definately starting to see a change.

The shakes. The morning supplements. The Isalean bars. All that jazz I have been following religiously but no major changes. I am hoping that will change and I will start feeling that amazing energy and motivation that all the Isagenix fanatics talk about 🙂

Feeling helpful!