Dark hopeless nights

The days are getting shorter.

Nights getting darker.

The air, is cool, crisp and eerie.

An overwhelming feeling takes over my soul.

Winter is approaching. Slowly, but surely it will be here.

And then what.

Where will she go?

How will she survive?

Shes homeless. And has been for over 20 years.

She lives off the land of booze, food stamps, and government hand outs.

She has no regrets. No ambitions. No desires in life

But

just to get that one more bottle.

One more sip.

Thats it.

All it takes is one, single drop that can ruin a

life

marriage

friendship

One drop. She chooses that one drop over her entire

family…

Once the bone chilling nights take over her being

Then what?

Will she become a statue frozen to the ground?

Will she fall asleep soundly and become a beautiful snow angel, forever…

Time will only tell

Until then I will hold my breathe

and

Wait for the long future nights of

sleeplessness

worry

anger

depression

One thought on “Dark hopeless nights

  1. What a heartfelt message from a loving daughter to a Mom who is longed for every minute of every day. I hope and pray the day will come when Mom “wakes up” to be able to embrace “her child, her children” to be able to acknowledge what incredible men and women they have become, despite the challenges they had, and have, to deal with on a daily basis because of bad choices made by a parent. Love you Nikki!

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