Thankul Thanksgiving

As I sti here and reflect on what to be thankful for…

The phone rang.

and of course it was her.

Do I answer?

Yes. I answer and then

I hung up.

Why is it that she can just up and call me just because its THANKSGIVING.

A day that we are suppose to be thankful for everything and everyone.

But seeing her name on the caller ID made my blood boil, and I felt the tears building up…

She cant do that. She cant think that just because its a holiday she can call me say thanksgiving, tell me how much she loves me, and then act as if nothing happened. Its wrong.

What goes thru her head? I just dont get it.

And then I instantly regretted hanging up. I wanted to tell her how awful she was. How she ruined my childhood. How she cant keep doing this to me. Bringing me back to this dark, awful, cold place. A place of hate of anger. I wanted to tell her all the awful things that shes said to me. Only…

I know what would happen. She would get upset. She wouldnt listen. She would get angry with me. And then she would drink. And it would be all my fault. She would blame me the next time she saw me with those piercing evil eyes.

So its better I dont answer. Its better I dont tell her anything. Its better that I just dont bother.

I am thankful for my amazing husband who keeps me grounded. And my amazing father who has been my rock and my best friend in my early on yearsโ€ฆ And he still is ๐Ÿ™‚

Did I mention I love to sew? I am thankful that I am learning to sew and want to sew.
Did I mention I love to sew? I am thankful that I am learning to sew and want to sew.

I am also thankful I didnt leave the giblets, or the neck in the turkey this year.

I am thankful for the internet and the ability read instructions.
I am thankful for the internet and the ability read instructions.

I am thankful I am able to move forward, and leave the past and the negativity in the past.

I am thankful for sewing, and my patience to sit for LONG periods of time.
I am thankful for sewing, and my patience to sit for LONG periods of time.

I am thankful that my dog likes beer.

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Mac has problems ๐Ÿ™‚

I forgot to mention I am thankful that I lived to be 27 years young. Heres to another 73 I hope…

What are you thankful for?

-44 degrees makes me :(

This morning we woke up to -44 degrees with the wind chill, and boy I tell it was cold, cold, cold! On days when its so cold, those are the hardest to get out of bed. We heat our house mainly with the wood stove, and keep the thermo down to 68 degrees, which is beyond freezing for me! But you just gotta keep chugging along! The juice train has slowed down to once maybe if we are lucky twice a day. This morning I made a quick berry & banana smoothie which was delish!

Classes are keeping me busy, and on my toes, as well as work. I have been sewing like a maniac and heres my progress soo far!

Mighty Kuskokwim Fish bags that hold plastic bags!
Mighty Kuskokwim Fish bags that hold plastic bags!

And!

Make-up bags. You can see the bag on the right was my first back into working with zippers :D
Make-up bags.
You can see the bag on the right was my first back into working with zippers ๐Ÿ˜€

As you can see I would rather be sewing, sewing away than homework! But my goals have been to do as much homework in one sitting so I can sew away!

To kick my butt back in gear I have been getting or TRYING to get back in the gym every other day! I need to start training my butt into Portland 1/2 marathon shape! In high school I ran cross-country and the fastest 5k I ran was 19:28 today I ran it in 26:58. Thats not too bad considering what it was before! I am making progress each week and I am loving every minute of it!

Yum!
Yum!

Onto the juice train! I made a delish juice this evening and am sipping away as I type. I have managed to eat healthy, try to maintain a good work out plan, and juice which has kept me at 130 lbs.

Since my work is nuts and doesnt allow any youtube videos to be watched, or any videos for that matter I must get ย working on this damn homework! Have a great evening!

 

Keeping healthy

Since I havent been juicing because Joe is still on the juice fast I have been trying to eat healthy. Salads, caribou,ย moose, and beans & rice. Tonight was the first night that I started juicing! ๐Ÿ™‚

Caribou spaghetti with sauteed peppers & mushrooms
Caribou spaghetti with sauteed peppers & mushrooms

Carrots & apple and it is delicious.

Carrot/Apple Juice
Yummy carrot & apple juice

 

I started my work out plan again and started with rowing. We have a rowing machine at home and 15-20 minutes out of my night along with pull-ups is a great way for me to start the work out plan. Since I have been getting home at 7 every evening, and have to cook dinner I will start my running tomorrow. I like running earlier in my day to get going, and moving.

I was late getting to the Farmers Market which opens at 3 pm and I got there at 3:05 and all the kale was gone! Along with other veggies! I was pretty sad but I guess I just have to get there earlier. But I did pick up some delicious apples, carrots, and lemons. Still amazes me how much I spend every Wednesday & Saturdays but I have to remember its healthy!

I found out some bad news this afternoon, one my friends/classmates died in a car crash. I am still in shock, she was only 27 years old with a beautiful family. Please cherish every moment with your family, and friends. Life is to precious to waste.

It is not others we need to impress, it is ourselves.Tammy Jo McIntyre
It is not others we need to impress, it is ourselves.
Tammy Jo McIntyre